There
are still two categories missing that I became aware of, and that have to come
into any reading-process because they are basic categories for making sense of
any fictional text: CHARACTERS and STORY. And at least I feel that they should
come FIRST, probably not before “genre” and “performing artists”, which, in the
first place, are categories for selecting texts for reading, but certainly before
“aesthetics”, “ethics”, and “humour” because these categories can only be used
if we have understood what the whole thing is about, or think we have. But of
course it isn’t like this. Usually all these categories are probably applied at
the same time – though this theory might literally be as false as the
supposition that we need to understand what a text is about before we can see
its beauty, or what the characters are about before we can have an ethical
reaction to them. But this is kind of like the never-ending discussion about
the hen and the egg, and I have found a better way to express what I mean, and
which was something I definitely noticed as exceptional in this case, and as an
aspect of playfulness, or deliberation, of my reading. I realized that I
shifted my FOCUS several times. And I think it became obvious already that, in
the beginning, I didn’t have – or didn’t WANT to have – my focus on the
characters. Which is where it usually is, first and foremost. On the
characters, NOT on the story. So I kind of moved away from the characters – or
rather: removed them from me. And I moved about in other ways as well, as I
have described already. For example from horror to beauty, or from ethical
concerns to questions about art. In a way, I made a lot of compartments into
which I kind of shoved things in order to deal with them later. In this case,
it proved a great technique of reading – not least because I actually did deal
with them LATER. And it became especially important where the characters are
concerned.
On the
other hand, it is typical for me not to make up my mind about a text, or
characters, in the beginning of my reading. I was fascinated by my friend
telling me that she stopped watching something after twenty minutes, or even
five minutes. I could never do something like this! If anything, I am the other
extreme, watching everything twice, even, usually, if I thought it wasn’t worth
watching. The most interesting example of this kind I remember happened just
recently when I watched “Parade’s End” and found it boring and flat FROM
BEGINNING TO END. And I still didn’t give up because I kind of knew that I
couldn’t be right about this. Maybe I was just not in the right mood for
watching it…? It cannot be that I disliked it completely, but the only thing I
actually remember about watching it for the first time is being amused and
fascinated by Benedict Cumberbatch acting throughout with the “speech
impediment” of a stiff upper lip. Nonetheless I watched it again, and this time
I found it interesting and really beautiful – even though, as it happens, I
disliked every single one of the characters. And even though I don’t remember
anything quite like this it must be this kind of experience that told me to
read the way I do. But it might be a personality thing as well because I must
either be a particularly thorough person, where it comes to these matters, or
kind of thick because I cannot take in EVERYTHING that is important AT ONCE. As
it turned out, analyzing my reading of “Hannibal”, both of them are probably true.
And it
includes that I am very reluctant to pass judgment on fictional characters. But
reading “Hannibal” became an extreme case in this respect as well. I noticed
this already when I wrote about ethics and aesthetics because I think I chose
my words and my categories very carefully when I described my first impression
of Richard Armitage impersonating Francis Dolarhyde. Instead of “exclusively
using aesthetical categories” I could have written “completely AVOIDING ethical
categories”. And about Hannibal himself, at first, I didn’t write ANYTHING AT
ALL.
Usually,
I am amazed, or even dismayed, of how fast people pass judgment on fictional
characters, categorizing them as “good” or “evil”. I know it is some integral
part of how we learn to understand the world, and is especially important when
we are children. Being brought up German I should know, but I GENUINELY
understood for the first time what an evil seed Hitler has sown recently when
my five-year-old nephew David had to learn that, in World War II, “we” had been
the VILLAINS. I think it was a really difficult and disagreeable thing for him
to understand, and I tried to explain somehow that this didn’t mean that all
Germans were BAD people at the time - to no avail! And I suddenly understood
that it was important for him to learn this. WITHOUT moderation. And, in a
similar way, it is important for us to categorize people. For example in a professional
context, or if they are about to become our flatmate or sister in law, or if we
fancy them, it can be important to make up our mind quickly about them to
avoid unnecessary contention.
And I
didn’t fully realize before what an interesting category “characters” is – kind
of taking it for granted - because it is of course the most personal part of
our reading: the way we are disposed towards, or are dealing with, certain
characters. But, as with other things, I am very likely to extend the benefit
of the doubt, to give them a second and a third chance. Which, in this context,
definitely doesn’t mean that I am waiting for them to turn out “good”! Rather
if they will do anything “special”, or prove “special” – kind of like Will
Graham’s relationship with Hannibal undergoes a sea change when he finally
begins to find him INTERESTING. And I think I am doing this because, in the
same way as in real life, you don’t really GET TO KNOW them if you are not
PATIENT. Maybe we don’t have to because we think we have already seen it, but,
especially with literary “classics”, I very much doubt that. I only have to recall
the many, mostly unsatisfying, variations of Jane Eyre or Mr. Rochester, or
Jane Austen’s characters who are somehow singular, always kind of surprising
when we see them on screen, and, even when they are great, leave so much to wish
for … or how long I had to wait until I REALLY saw a dwarf or a hobbit! There
may be these very few cases where I never need to see another version of this
character again, like when Ray Winstone played Henry VIII, or Colin Firth and
Richard Armitage playing Mr. Darcy and John Thornton. Or, of course, Ian
McKellen and Martin Freeman as Gandalf and Mr. Baggins. That is because ALL the
input you ever get about these characters makes complete sense when you see
them. But – luckily! – there is an ongoing “debate” about most literary
characters. I am certainly not unhappy that I haven’t really “seen” Macbeth …
I think
this may even be the most personal thing for me about Shakespeare. Because he
doesn’t do it. He doesn’t pass judgement. I am aware that the “time” was
entirely different but still, I think, it is special that there are (almost)
no villains. Or, more precisely, that his villains are always HUMAN BEINGS like
everybody else. And it is not that we SHOULDN’T pass judgment! Rather that he’d
leave the unpleasant task of doing it to US, that he makes it DIFFICULT for us.
Which is good. And which is why we will always need these special actors who
are able to send their mirror-neurons on the expedition of understanding this character
STILL better than we do. This is why I was infinitely grateful for Ralph Fiennes
playing Richard III as a BAD HUMAN being WITH a sense of humour. And I think I
BEGAN to understand Falstaff – and find him interesting! - when I saw Simon
Russell Beale playing him in “The Hollow Crown”, almost without humour, making
up for the loss of text by showing a condensed version of the abyss opening under
the entertaining surface. Falstaff isn’t just the eternal looser who can’t get
a grip on life but somehow escapes every calamity through his wit, but a really
VISCIOUS creature underneath who doesn’t care the least bit for the damage he
does to others.
But
everybody will always see these complex characters differently, and this is the
great thing about it. And it probably is a personal issue in my case which
leads to the way I am reading. Because I really don’t like to close the book on
people, putting them into categories. And this is probably because I hate
people doing this to me. Especially when they are right! As it is so important
we are usually very good at getting out the right set of prejudices and pinning
it onto the right person. It is economical and efficient, but somehow it isn’t
what I really want to “get out of” people – or a text. I have probably thought
about this a lot, and I still don’t know what it is I want. But I know that
this technique of deliberately slowing down my understanding became a constructive
part of my reading in this case. It kind of created “open space” for more
information to come in. I think this is why I got this much more complete
picture of Francis Dolarhyde in the end, with all the additional “experience”
from the first two seasons. And now there is actually a profit of having
documented my reading so copiously in my blog because now I don’t have to
describe again how I saw Hannibal or Will Graham as I have already done this.
And especially because, even after such a short time, I wouldn’t have a clear
recollection of it if I hadn’t written about it. So, the horrible length of my
“Hannibal” chapter finally proves useful.
I have
already referred a few times to the short paragraph where I described my first
impressions of Francis Dolarhyde, and maybe I am reading too much into it now, but
it proves again a valuable document, in this case of how CAUTIOUS I was to
approach these characters. I don’t think I was just reluctant, in my usual way,
to pass judgment too early, but kind of cautious not to become “involved” with
them. I became aware how careful I was about the categories I used
to describe Francis Dolarhyde. So, what I LEFT OUT became tell-tale. There were
parts of his personality and what happens to him that I approached VERY slowly.
And there is a much more ample documentation of this in my blog about Hannibal
– for obvious reasons! And maybe the best proof how much I NEEDED to keep my
distance was when I found a way to hold these characters at arm’s length by
discovering their “fairy-tale” aspect, or their “functional” aspect as
characters in a game. So there is an obvious question of WHY I thought they
might be dangerous, and I don’t think I have answered it in any way.
About
Hannibal and the “Red Dragon” it seems to be rather obvious. They are genuinely
scary, and kind of unexpectedly attractive at the same time. Hannibal is
certainly persuasive because he is so perfect, and so confident. And I think
that makes him a great character to play. Whereas Richard Armitage, looking
into Francis Dolarhyde, to say it pointedly, didn’t discover a serial killer
but a child. And especially with my experience about how attractive and
“innocent” male children can be this wasn’t just an interesting turn from
anything I had expected … (I am afraid little girls actually ARE less naïve and
more calculating than little boys. And I am afraid this might actually still be
because they are not loved unconditionally … But of course this is basically a
female perspective! One more reason though for being cautious …)
But the
most difficult and “dangerous” character - and the character that came into
focus LAST - proved Will Graham who is exactly the kind of character I dislike,
and of course I knew this! I knew as well that a lot of getting close in the
case of Francis Dolarhyde and Hannibal was about admiring the work the actors
have done on these characters, and this didn’t happen with Will Graham. I think
I came to appreciate the work by and by, but this really happened only “in the
end” – when I finally became involved with the story. And, unlike Will Graham,
Hannibal is actually “fun” as well – even if it is a viscious kind of fun. Whereas
Will Graham is in fact the really “bad” part of the story … but, whereas during
the first season the focus was on Hannibal, during the second one it inevitably
shifted towards Will Graham and the “big” question about the whole series, I
think: WHAT IS HE UP TO? “We” know what Hannibal is up to, at least we think so
… Maybe I even HAD to close the book on Hannibal at some point, and I even set
down the exact moment when I “dropped” Francis Dolarhyde, but I became also
aware at some point that, if I wasn’t willing to go all the way with Will
Graham, I would finally MISS the story.
This way
of somehow “accessing” the story THROUGH the characters is typical for
me but also has to do with the kind of stories I prefer and read: stories that
focus on people and their relationships, their predicaments, their dreams, their
successful or unsuccessful efforts to cope or to get what they want. There,
analyzing the characters and figuring out what happens goes hand in hand. There
was actually a time when I was writing nothing but love-stories for years, though
I have never cared much for love-stories, the “typical” kind at least. But I
found out that this was because, in this case, the characters already ARE the
story. If you have picked the right characters the story will “write” itself
and you never have to bother with it. And I usually had a theory about if there
would be a happy ending or not, but I never KNEW … And finding that out,
finding out about the characters on a deep level, where their real strengths
and weaknesses, and the center of their being actually was, turned out to be
great fun. As I must say, I have probably always been kind of bored with
“story” – though I think I know how important it is for a good text. (And I
think I even identified this as the reason that I don’t write fiction anymore.)
To be
precise, there are at least three categories about characters - and all of them
are of course intertwined, and all of them come into understanding the story - which
I call PERSON, RELATIONSHIPS, and ACTIONS. And I think when we are reading a
text of this kind “successfully” we are always doing this, at least about the
important characters: making up our mind about what kind of people they are,
observing and evaluating the relationships they have with one another and what
they are actually doing. And this is my way of “getting” the story - story in the sense of what I think is actually happening - kind of
“second-hand”, observing the characters.
And there is
a fourth category about characters which is probably more important than we think
– in fiction as well as in real life, by the way, where I think I am
deliberately very cautious about it: the way other people are talking about
them. And I remember there actually was a point where I was puzzled about this
in the case of Will Graham. But, as I obviously do in real life: I finally
discarded the part of what people said about him in favour of what I actually
SAW.
There is
an extremely interesting aspect of this last category, which I don’t know how
to call – maybe RUMOUR, or CHATTER, but both of them aren’t quite what I mean.
It may have to do with what I really want to get out of getting to know people
in a fictional context. Because, in real life, you actually don’t have ANYTHING
else most of the time. At least about people you don’t really know personally.
And I think we don’t even REALLY know people we think we know because all we
know is the way they are interacting with US, which may be a much smaller part
of their personality – or personalities, by the way – than we think. And we
usually know them from what other people were talking about them FROM THE
BEGINNING. Maybe "rumour" and "chatter" are both good expressions because they
include a connotation of doubt about the information we are getting. It is the
reason why I have actively to SHUT OUT the internet when there is somebody who
I am interested in and whom I don’t know personally – which happens about every
ten years or less; in this respect, I am the most incurious person I know –
because I don’t want to be distracted or mislead by chatter EVEN IF I must sacrifice
information I want. Sometimes, just sometimes, it is a really hard choice … There
usually isn’t that much to be gained by only listening to people expressing
THEMSELVES because many people, including myself, aren’t good at it. But, if
somebody is, this is certainly the best you can do to get to know them. If I
absolutely had to choose, the most fascinating part of “House of Cards” for me
wouldn’t even be to watch Francis Underwood scheming and manipulating people
but Claire Underwood managing the “exchange” of what kind of person she thinks
she is, wants to be, really is, and what parts of this she uses publicly, and
how she does this … I think this might be the best sample EVER of somebody managing
a public image – which, as it is so precise, is even kind of painful to watch.
Nonetheless I admire people who aren’t able to leave anything to chance and can
be so explicit and precise about themselves. Maybe because it is kind of like
making yourself into a text which you actually WANT to read … So, reading the
way people want to be known, plus the information they give about themselves
and what I know they have actually done that might interest me (which is NOT to
whom and how often they have been married …) are the basic kind of information
which you are not going to get through chatter because it is impossible to
separate the information which is relevant, or “true”, from the bullshit. Only
WHEN you have this kind of information it might be interesting to get input
from other people – though I observed that I only use it to “confirm” something
I have suspected anyway. In any case, if chatter is the only thing I can get, I
usually discard it right away.
And,
even though this might be absurd, I suspect that one of the main functions of
reading for me actually is getting to know people in a way you don’t get to
know them in real life. Even, in a way, to INTERACT with them more freely, and
unconcerned of restrictions imposed by propriety and what we don’t talk about
and so on … In a way, getting to know the TRUTH about people. And this is of
course why I absolutely love actors who are mainly interested in the truth of
their character. Well, I suspected that it would turn out to be about the most
important thing in life – which, I am almost sorry to say, apart from basics
like food, clean water, electricity, digestion …, actually is love. And it is
about love because a big part of love is about knowing the COMPLETE truth about
the loved person. It begins when we get INTERESTED so much that we actually
WANT to know the truth. It is an IDEAL, of course, which we’ll never approach
in real life – if only because the complete truth about somebody doesn’t exist.
But, like the ideal of a complete, somehow “closed” text as what we are aiming
at in a reading process, we cannot get rid of it – unless we somehow get rid of
love. And I am sure that happens all the time. By the way, it happened to me …!
But I obviously didn’t want it to happen, and this may be what these abstract
notions and ideals in religion and philosophy are for: to give us direction, a
sense of where we are headed. Because I think “we” still know THAT they are
important. Which, in my way of thinking, includes that we are actually DOING
something with them. And maybe this “abstract” form of love I can PRACTICE when
I am reading is the reason why reading is NECESSARY for me, why it has become a
central part of my life, not just something good “on the side”.
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