Freitag, 17. März 2017

"Moonlight" - glimmering!



O my God, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL FILM! I might recycle the final sentence from my last post about "Manchester at the Sea" and, even though this is the best thing I could think of saying about a film, it would never do "Moonlight" justice. So it wasn't JUST a "political" choice. I still haven't seen "La-La-Land", and probably never will, but there cannot be any film matching this, neither in beauty and perfection (= capacity of telling exactly, simply, and beautifully what you want to tell), nor on the level of intelligence and perspicacity. It was PERFECT in all respects. And whereas "Manchester at the Sea" is just "quietly" beautiful "Moonlight" is bold and daring as well. And emotional, in a totally "honest" way. The kind of film that couldn't leave anybody unmoved who has a human bone in his body. It doesn't occur often that I definitely lack the words for adequate praise ...

And I think now that Mahershala Ali didn't get the Oscar for being black AND Muslim, and not even mostly for being good-looking and confident, but kind of "by proxy" for all the great (black) actors contributing to this film. Everybody was amazing anyway. But of course I can't know that. Same as it is impossible to know definitely if "Moonlight" got the Oscar for the "right" reasons or if this was in fact "political". Which, by the way, might be the wrong reason only in my book, not in most people’s. Making or receiving this kind of judgements is not something I am fond of, but it comes into any reading almost more inevitably than "ethics" and is always kind of embarrassing - as I just experienced when I received my friend's merciless rejection of "Hannibal". Because, even though she meticulously laid down her reasons for rejecting it, does this mean that I am fond of watching shit, and what does this say about me? I think that this kind of implications are the reason why I have become even more careful about criticism than I have been, but, as I said, some kind of verdict about the people who have liked it is almost always implied. And to make it explicit would mean to make up my mind about what "kitsch" or "bad taste", or other terms we use (even if only in our head) to pass a crushing verdict, actually means. That is, what the concept is that is masked by these invectives. And it is not the most captivating thing to do but - as I realize every year when the Oscars come up - might be useful. What I realized as well is that I avoid to SAY "kitsch" or "bad taste" - even though I probably think it more often than I realize - and use the more subjective, but no less crushing, terms "boring" and "stupid". Maybe because I don't like to write something I don't understand, and I understand what "boring" and "stupid" means. That is, that I was bored when I watched it and felt it to be beneath my intellectual ("philosophical") standards. (Meaning: inacceptable as to the way I see the world ...) Well, in both respects I am completely on the safe side with "Moonlight". It is definitely one of the least boring and stupid films I have ever seen, like "The Big Short" was, and unlike "Spotlight" which I haven't seen - I just assumed that it was the film that a majority would be able to relate to, unlike "The Big Short", which would make it less intelligent. I admit it: I am still pleased that I was the only person in the cinema who laughed ... (But my brother, who is working in a bank, loved it as well. And I think he took one of the characters very personally. If I had thought about it I would have known who this would be ...) But of course this is as snobbish an attitude as I have observed and hated in others. If I couldn't even be bothered to see something I should keep my mouth shut. (Writing it in my blog might be the next best thing anyway ...) But of course this is how it works. This kind of preconceived opinions is important too because this is how we choose what we can be bothered to read in the first place. And it is important because nobody can read everything worth reading. (In terms of going to the cinema it is ever more becoming a question of spending money that I could spend on dvds instead …)

And even if this topic is kind of "not sexy" it is something that probably came into any of my posts, and into any of my reading. Because it is somehow fundamentally important to me to do things for the "right" reasons. Which might be stupid because: how does it matter anyway? What is the difference if I do things just because I like them ...? I know, though. It makes me develop "better" taste and makes me usually like the things I like even more. (I even know that my "gut reaction" AGAINST Schiller came from understanding him so well ... And then I was so pleased to discover that I didn't!) As I said, it IS important, but I won't get anywhere with this right now. I might as well go back to the film.

“Moonlight” got a nomination for "best camera" which I think is justified but daring because the hand-held camera is used so inexorably that the image is actually blurry sometimes, and right in the beginning I thought: "No, you don't!" because the cameraman stood right in between the actors and was turning round and round ... but in fact this was great because I suddenly felt as if I stood in this place myself, with the aggression palpably rising about me. Feeling uncomfortable NOT JUST because of the spinning around. This is something I have never seen before (I usually hate hand-held camera ...) except in "Knight of Cups" (which should have got "best camera" by the way, back then ...) This was the first time I appreciated the hand-held camera because the filming created a completely subjective perspective to the point that THIS, in my opinion, was already what the film was about. So, as a means of telling stories IN A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT WAY, like in "Moonlight", the hand-held camera is great. And I appreciated the turning round because of this but was also grateful when they stopped. In fact I have never noticed camera movements as often as I did in this film, and that was because I could see so exactly why they were doing what they were doing.

And this goes for every other aspect of this film as well, which is why I loved it so much. The exactness and truth of every little moment, especially in the acting. Like Juan (Mahershala Ali) literally shrinking before the young boy because he has to tell him the truth about what he is doing. But he DOES tell the truth, even though he knows that he will lose his respect, will lose him completely. And this is the last time we see Juan. We just see, in the third part of the film, the boy having grown into the spitting image of him, now selling drugs himself. But as much as I liked this, to be quite honest: Naomi Harris should have got "best supporting actress" (she was nominated) - which would have implied that Mahershala Ali wouldn't have got "best supporting actor". And this isn't even about merit because there is no comparing of so many truthful and extraordinary feats of acting anyway. It is about "justice". In fact there is an especially ugly paradox contained in this constellation: the self-appointed father (Juan) who cares properly for the boys and who is selling drugs to people like this boy’s mother, making her unable to care for him. Maybe this film, albeit being so “simple”, is in fact too sophisticated on a deeper level for most people. (Including me: I noticed the paradox just now writing about it. And then I noticed a lot more of paradox throughout the film. It was kind of like when I “got it” what “Macbeth” is actually about, noticing the persistent “equivocation”. Because, even though people want it to be like this: humanity and morality are two different pairs of shoes - or at least you are born LUCKY when you are born into circumstances where they are not ...??? Blimey! I didn’t really try to but I might have dug up by accident what the film was about for me. Nonetheless I didn't mean "poetic" justice, I meant justice towards the actors because I think it was “harder” to play Paula than to play Juan. At least I think that most actors prefer to play characters that appeal to the audience and are sleek and beautiful rather than ugly and cracking. Even though “real” actors probably prefer the ugly and cracking to BORING beautiful characters. 

I just inadvertently got into the “90th stuff” of my dvd collection and remembered that I had liked the 90th even on German television because it was still about 90 percent more honest than what they do today. I always wonder where this generation came from that has completely lost touch with everything that is “real” inside them. Maybe there just ISN’T anything anymore that is not spelled out by the television and advertising industry before it ends up on “our” plate … Anyway, I watched “The Lakes” first and then “Sparkhouse” which are kind of the same style but, whereas “Sparkhouse” literally stinks of sheep and everything is steeped knee-deep in mud, there is so much boring and depressing sex in “The Lakes” as is probably actually still going on in this kind of places. Only it is probably less disagreeable now because every imaginable kind of ugliness and misery gets “face-lifted” by social media. My, my, now the nineties already appear historical to me, whereas the eighties are definitely turned into ancient history. But it IS twenty years ago …In fact the only “pretend” reason for writing this – because I so obviously WANTED to write it! – was an example for what I was stating because it is the most obvious example for an actor I have on dvd who is totally unhappy with the character he is playing. I couldn’t fail noticing it because it is Richard Armitage playing a farm hand called John Standring. And I suppose he hated every minute of it because he knew he was unable to hide his posh accent, and his intelligence and good looks completely. He probably didn’t want to because hiding isn’t what actors do, and he probably couldn’t figure out what there was to SHOW instead. And I suppose he didn’t like it either that they desperately tried to make him look awkward and unattractive by tucking him into baggy pullovers (I don’t think we even use that WORD anymore …) and making him wear a very unattractive hairdo. (In fact my father used to grow his hair like this, and he was a school-teacher, not a farm hand! But this was definitely the seventies … where it didn’t matter what men LOOKED like. Even in the late eighties he had begun to have his hair cut very short.) And they even failed! They just made him look clownish, which was probably even worse. Well, I suspect he hated it half the time and the other half tried very hard not to laugh … 

Maybe this is even why I like this stuff, even though it appears pathetic and exaggerated from a twenty-first century perspective: because it makes me aware of how much times have changed – of course not entirely for the good. These two series are in fact a great sample of the “period”, with “beautiful” actors – I finally understood why John Simm obviously enjoyed playing Danny Kavanagh in “The Lakes” so much. Because there is so much of a human angle and so much variety of human predicaments in there. (In fact, John Standring is a great character as well – almost one of his kind, at least in films, because he “naturally” sees the best in other people, not the worst – as “we” usually do. And of course Richard Armitage took up this angle and played it beautifully. But he is certainly not somebody "we" would want to be.) Or why I always held Alun Armstrong - who plays the literally ugliest character in “Sparkhouse” - in such high esteem, and was so pleased to rediscover him in “Little Dorrit”. This face – I just couldn’t get away from it! It certainly isn’t attractive but there is a whole LANDSCAPE in it which is even changing towards the end, completely, like a real landscape does, neglected and beaten down by the passing of time … 

I know I got sidetracked because it is ages that I wanted to write this and – what I didn’t even know until now: because it is such great proof of HOW MUCH times have changed. And this is even why it is such a stellar example for what I wanted to state about “justice”. Because there actually WAS a greater interest in the human angle back then and, consequently, in characters that don’t fit the norm and aren’t redeemed automatically for being good-looking and “cool”. So it would have been great to give the Oscar to Naomi Harris because she played ugly and cracking “beautifully” and didn’t spare herself anything. (But I am still secretly pleased of course that Mahershala Ali got it …) 

And these observations brought me closer to why I think “Moonlight” is so exactly what I like. Even the “bad” mother and drug addict, in my opinion, isn’t “exposed” and stripped of her dignity – probably “protected” by great and truthful acting, though it is impossible to determine where this impression comes from. It originates probably even mainly in the way this story is told (of which the actors still have the biggest part, even though the camera is almost as important): subjectively, avoiding to pass judgement in any form, but with these big paradoxes underneath which induce the audience to finding their own point of view. In the protagonist’s orbit a drug dealer is mostly somebody who has “made it”, who has become powerful and rich. But I am rather certain that he abandoned his role model nonetheless because he learns that Juan “destroyed” his mother. And nonetheless he genuinely hates her for what she has done to him. He even says so AT THE SAME TIME he acknowledges his bond with her that will last as long as both of them are alive. There is no way out of it – as there is no way out of who he is. Living it will be quite enough of a challenge.

Now I have finally arrived at what in my opinion is the most beautiful thing about the film – and why I think there should have been a “shared” Oscar for the leading actors of “Moonlight” (even though I would have felt sorry for Casey Affleck whom I admired very much in “Manchester at the Sea”). But this was something I have never seen before: how faithfully the older actors “absorbed” their younger versions in their acting. Especially Trevante Rhodes who plays the adult, “Black”. I almost gasped with surprise – I think I did, actually – when I suddenly saw the vulnerable young man you have come to know kind of “break” through the “armoured tank” of muscle, coolness and gold teeth. Kind of like the light suddenly breaking through the clouds and changing the landscape completely. As for many of the greatest achievements he didn’t “get” anything for it – except maybe the future opportunity of playing more great characters, which I certainly hope for. (And a place in the “hall of eternal admiration” of people like me who care for this kind of thing. In my case in such illustrious company as the “showdown sequence” of “The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly”, or Ralph Fiennes as Richard III. Which won’t matter to him because in my case he will never know …) Yet, of course he got something lasting out of it which is THIS FILM that albeit all the great work of other people would have FAILED without this. And I just hope he can SEE that himself, like the spectators can. I often wonder if actors can and am skeptical. I suppose they are too much “caught up” within their characters, like musicians in the middle of an orchestra cannot really hear the sound the orchestra is making. Anyway – looking forward to seeing him again, even if it will be five years, or ten years … And THIS is of course the “political” implication of giving the Oscar to a film like “Moonlight” which is REALLY important. I just hope it WORKS!


Sonntag, 5. März 2017

The Oscars: I really didn’t want to do this, but I was soooo pleased


Obviously there has to be a post about the Oscars every year even though it has nothing to do with anything (consider it “bonus” …) And even though I know that the Oscars don’t mean anything, that most of it is just “political”, but once in a while political turns out good. And of course it is a pity for “La-La-Land” if it is really this great film – I don’t care, and I didn’t see it. I didn’t get a chance of seeing “Moonlight” either because it didn’t start here until the week after the Oscars, but I was looking forward to it, not least because I realized that Mahershala Ali (from “House of Cards”) is in it. But I had the most pleasant surprise when I switched on the radio on Monday morning after Oscar night, actually expecting nothing (I didn’t check on any nominations this time so as not to be disappointed), and heard that he won “best supporting actor”! I still cannot believe it … and YES, I KNOW that he won it because he is black AND muslim but what the …! Probably the first time in his life THIS combination turned out to be an advantage. And if he had won “Sexiest man alive” on top of that I would have been baffled but certainly not displeased. Though that’s not why I like him, at least I don’t think so. It’s his quiet “collectedness”. He appears like somebody who actually can focus, or meditate, so as to make things happen. But I only know him as Remy Danton. O, and of course he has this great (sexy) voice …

And I definitely liked it that I was right for once. I knew that there was no way it would be “La-La-Land” after what happened last year at the Oscars, and after they had managed to produce two films with none but black actors. It HAD to be one of them. As there is no “impartial” choice anyway, I will certainly be better pleased with “Moonlight”. And even though I was kind of delighted about Mahershala Ali I was deeply and quietly pleased about their choice of “best actor” because “Manchester at the Sea” would have been my choice for “best film”, and Casey Affleck would actually have been my choice for “best actor” if I hadn’t seen “Indignation” just last week … I usually dislike this kind of film where you see nothing but the face of an actor full screen for about fifty minutes out of ninety, but this young actor whose name I forgot instantly actually achieved to tell completely what his character is about just through the constantly baffled look on his face. And it was a good adaptation of the novel as far as I can tell but not an extraordinary film. So it is more than okay because “Manchester at the Sea” is a really beautiful film and Casey Affleck an extraordinary actor. Even more so as, with the usual kind of acting and thinking about something like this – how do you live on after the worst of your nightmares has come true, and it’s YOUR FAULT? – it would have turned out the same kind of boring and depressing films like this usually turn out – which is why I usually don’t watch them. But this is a quiet, ultimately “poetic” film where groundbreaking things happen without much of a story to it. Just the thing I like.

Freitag, 17. Februar 2017

No Man’s Land ( - and, on the occasion of the second anniversary of „The Crucible“: why theatre is so good when it is NOT theatre …)



I think I kind of expected that I would use my blog as a “scrapbook” for a time. Of course I would need a scrapbook, and it was already the day after I published this swan song on my blog that I saw “No Man’s Land” with Patrick Stewart and Ian McKellen in the “Cinema”. Very fitting title for continuing my blog in 2017 by the way … But I won’t write any theatre reviews or the like just because I don’t have anything else to write. This will still be about reading.

As usual, I went because I wanted to see these two actors, and I didn’t make up my mind about the play beforehand. I didn’t know anything about it, and I didn’t read it – which would have been a complete waste of time anyway. Though it might have been interesting to see what would have “happened” if I had tried to read it aloud. But I doubt anything would have happened in this case. And I couldn’t have understood it any better than I did because I understood EVERY SINGLE WORD anyone said on that stage. (Finally everybody was speaking so slowly that even I could follow – and it even was the perfect way of speaking the text!)

The reason why I am writing about it is, as usual, because I enjoyed it and wanted to know why. I especially enjoyed the “aftermath” which is always significant. It began immediately after I had seen it. There was a q&a, and it was still before ten, but I didn’t want to stay for it. And I think this was because I didn’t want to spoil the mood. Strange, because it is certainly one of these plays I usually would have felt to be depressing and boring, and then I liked the experience so much that I didn’t want to spoil it.

The immediate reason was certainly that the actors - all four of them, by the way! - spoke the text so beautifully that they easily convinced me that it is special even though it didn’t yield any meaning. But meaning can “happen” in very different ways, and there was definitely something happening for these four actors. And without a text that works great on the stage you would never see four great actors WHOEVER they were! (Though I couldn’t escape the impression that Patrick Stewart might actually play a chair and “we” might like to watch him doing it …)

What jogged my brain and made me realize what exactly happened on that stage was picking up a scrap of conversation during the interval. A woman explaining to some younger people that the play was kind of “Waiting for Godot” … And I would have liked to pitch in spontaneously and say: No, it is NOT, stupid!

But of course I would never have done something like this. And she might not even have been COMPLETELY wrong. But if this was “Waiting for Godot” it was certainly an “adult” version for people who worked out that their brain isn’t just there to produce thoughts and reproduce stuff they have learned at school, but that we use it to create emotions and impressions OF OUR OWN. “Waiting for Godot” I had done at uni and had hated it, of course. It is exactly the kind of stuff I hate because it actually IS boring, and in this case I am sure seeing it in the theatre wouldn’t have changed this. Because it is about nothing happening, and that’s all there is. So THERE IS NOTHING HAPPENING on that stage whereas there was definitely something going on in “No Man’s Land” – apart from Ian McKellen being in love with his text and Patrick Stewart sitting in a chair in the most significant manner I have ever seen anybody sitting in a chair. But what was it?

I think that “No Man’s Land” actually isn’t ABOUT anything. Nothing significant happens – in terms of “story” – and nothing anybody says really MEANS anything, or yields any real insight into these characters. Who they are doesn’t really matter, nor what they are talking about. But all of it is used in a “material” way, as “stuff” to create something quite different. At least in this production, “No Man’s Land” is a performance to create something on the stage which is appropriately called “No Man’s Land”, and which is something that actually exists in real life but that we seldom become aware of. I’d describe it as some kind of space in between the layer of talking – which actually is something “we” apparently HAVE to do, even if there is no reason or thought or point to it, just like we need to breathe, and which is an activity I try to avoid … pointless talk. A space between this constant activity of mindless talking and the human being which is the physical and psychological source of this talk. This space, or void, is something we usually don’t feel, or become aware of, and which might be so small that it is almost inexistent, or certainly “unfelt”, especially when we are young. But when “we” are growing older, or old … and nobody is interested anymore in us as the physical and psychological unit we are, it begins to become bigger. And it was getting bigger and bigger on that stage until it became REALLY big, and really dark. It even had a different “sound” to it, like the sound of the void as distinct from the beautiful sounding text, like being in a large cave where sounds are different from the outside, or like standing inside a big sphere … And to see or feel this space being created on the stage as something that ACTUALLY EXISTS was totally exciting. Even more so as there is something beautiful being created from an experience which in real life must be ugly and depressing, through language and “physical” playing. And this is exactly the kind of thing I like to see in the theatre. And which can happen ONLY in the theatre, by the way – even if the stage is a cinema screen.

And of course it can only happen when you have these great actors who can “fill” the stage like this, having this sublime awareness of language as well as this complete understanding of themselves as physical beings. Especially Patrick Stewart was incredible. I last saw him in the RSC’s “Hamlet” (with David Tennant as Hamlet), and I almost couldn’t believe it. Kind of like it was to see Cate Blanchett in “Carol” – AFTER “Blue Jasmine”, or Richard Armitage as the “Red Dragon” even after “The Crucible”. How can there be SO MUCH MORE even after this? All these examples aren’t really something to compare, and I am in no position to judge anyway, knowing so little of his theatre-work. But he definitely is one of my favourite actors now, if he wasn’t before that, which are the ones of whom I EXPECT that they will surprise me.

And I know I should have stayed for the q&a, if only to confirm something I came to suspect many times. That, as a reader, I can have a “better”, more complete or significant, understanding of a text than any of the people producing it – directors included. Which doesn’t mean that the act of creating it wasn’t a much more INTENSE experience than watching (or reading) it. It certainly was, but I am in a much better position to see what actually “came out” of this act of creating. When everything that they put into it is coming together. Well, I couldn’t confirm it in this case, maybe another time …

Anyway, it was one of the purest examples of something I probably appreciate more than anything about reading. That there is a very distinct state created WITHIN MYSELF that is DIFFERENT from any other state I experienced until then. And it made me see even more clearly what I need this blog for because, if I “just” experienced it, it ends there. I don’t know what it is I have been feeling, and I won’t remember it later on unless I can repeat the experience and feel THE SAME again. Sometimes I am able to describe or explain it satisfactorily – as in this case, or when I read “Vanity Fair”, or when I am watching “House of Cards”. Or reading Shakespeare, by the way. I know WHY it is special. Sometimes it is probably a too complex or singular and personal experience so that I have never been able to describe it properly as, I think, was the case with “The Crucible”. I am getting better at explaining what happened, though. I just realized, putting together my “diary” from 2015 (which is more like a “bimonthly”), that this exceptional theatre experience now dates back two years, and I couldn’t believe it! The only thing that is more strange is that I am apparently still “working on it”. But I am fairly certain now that it turned out this way because I had a personal history with this play – having seen the film twenty years ago – WITHOUT REALIZING IT when I finally saw it in the theatre for the first time. I don’t even think that I would ever have wanted to admit this, but it was one of these texts that had a similar impact on me – especially on the part of me that is female! – as, for example, “The Scarlet Letter”, or “Madame Bovary”, or “The White Peacock”. So, I got ambushed by my own UNRESOLVED personal issues at the same time I enjoyed the beauty and perfection of it. And this personal content cannot be “appropriated” in the same way as other more “generally accepted” emotions, though I think a lot of it can be “used” for reading, but then it is already altered. That is what I think happened when I read “The Shrew” where I used a very personal experience to get all the fun out of the play, and almost all the “life” into it. But with “The Crucible” it was different, and I believe that I even WANTED it to come out like this, in a way as bad as it really was. And I kind of liked feeling REALLY BAD for about three days after I had seen it because this was how I found out what had happened. I even like to think that this was because they really “meant” what happened on that stage. This utter determination to get to the bottom of the truth of this play was what I felt from the beginning and what impressed me more than I can say. And made me rediscover how much I love theatre – when it is NOT theatre.  

Thinking about this I hit on at least one issue about reading where I’d very much like to dig deeper. It was there as an underlying experience especially when I compared watching Shakespeare plays as stage productions and on screen. And I had a go at it once, trying to explain, clumsily I think, what happens when I “hit” the fourth wall. Until now it has proved epistemologically useful to treat every text – be it a book, a film, a theatre production, or a tv series – the same: as the beginning and end-product of a reading process. But the differences had begun to show as well, as in this case the fundamentally different experience of watching a performance on screen or on stage. I am not really optimistic that I will ever get to the bottom of it, but it appears that the stage somehow is the ideal place for dealing with the TRUTH. In a way I haven’t even begun to describe, it is almost always more direct and honest, and I cannot protect myself from it in the same way I can when it is a film. Any film! – And I just had a short but no less interesting exchange with my brother about a similar issue. He has currently had a very significant experience about discovering reading as a “room of his own”, and gave an intense description of what happens when he is reading. I could slap myself that I haven’t actively put it to memory … And he told me that the experience of seeing a tv production of a story in his opinion could never compete with the experience of reading the book. And even though I don’t necessarily feel the same I know exactly what he means. The difference is that I love adaptations of great literature, and love and expect it to be a DIFFERENT experience. But undoubtedly there is a fundamental difference between what happens when we are watching and when we are reading. At the moment I mainly experience getting tired when I am reading. But this is not insignificant either because it suggests that reading, for whatever reason, appears to suck up much more of my energy. But it certainly is a lot more complex than that, and one reason for getting tired is probably that I am NOT reading Shakespeare at the moment but Philippa Gregory …